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I didn't take my meds today.

I had a weird floating sensation for some of this evening but that's about it.

I'm wondering if the extreme symptoms that have occured when I've missed them in the past, were either coincidental and/or psychosematic.

When I'm ON my meds, mood swings, anxiety, and panic attacks disturb me.
There shouldn't be reason for them.

If I don't take my meds and feel off... well there's a reason for it...
Which is calming in its own twisted way.

Plus either way this goes, refusing to take them is giving me a nice little ego boost.
It's almost empowering to have to consiously control my mood.

(Then there's the rush of not really knowing what's going to happen.)

I realize that I'm trying to rationalize totally irrational behavior... but... eh?

If it goes horribly wrong... well, I'll know better next time.

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